I Can Only Hold You Now

  • By: Joni Eareckson Tada
  • Jan. 26, 2018
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I Can Only Hold You NowMore than 30 years ago, my friend Gracie was only 17 and in college, studying hard, keeping late nights… when one night, while driving on the highway, she fell asleep at the wheel. Her car careened off the road, into a ditch, and slammed against a concrete abutment. It was a horrific accident. She was rushed to the hospital, and remained in a coma for three weeks. Every bone from the waist down was broken — one surgeon counted nearly 200 fractures! Eventually, both legs had to be amputated. 

As you can imagine, Gracie deals with a significant amount of chronic pain. Thankfully though, she has her Peter — her husband and college sweetheart, who helps care for her daily. Peter and Gracie know all too well the realities of life with a disability — the never-ending caregiving routines, the frequent doctor visits, the fear of the unknown, the disappointments and heartaches… It’s why Peter recently composed a song in tribute to his dear wife and the many caregivers who constantly go above and beyond in caring for the needs of their disabled loved one. It’s called “I Can Only Hold You Now.” And oh, was I moved to tears! If you’re a caregiver, I just know this song will bless and encourage you. In fact, I loved it so much, I downloaded it to my iTunes :-) Listen to it in this heartwarming music video and then share it with your friends! I know Peter and Gracie would love to hear about how this song has touched you, so leave a comment and I’ll make sure to share it with them.


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This is very touching Thanks for sharing. I listen on WPEO radio in Peoria Ill. God bless all you care givers.
  • Feb. 1, 2018
  • 12:48 p.m.
  • Joy Gluck
Such a beautiful, touching song. My precious Down Syndrome grandson played basketball today with many very precious “special” adult men. I am always amazed at the love these men show for each other as they compete to win. We have learned so much from these “special” people. Our grandson was a gift to us. My only concern is how this all plays out in Gods plan. Do they comprehend their need for Jesus in their lives. I would love to know Joni’s thoughts on this.
  • Jan. 27, 2018
  • 7:18 p.m.
  • Connie Bartholomew
Wow! The tears are streaming!!
  • Jan. 27, 2018
  • 5:39 a.m.
  • Beth Hohenberger
Today would have been my parents 61st wedding anniversary and they are in heaven together. I had the sweet and sorrowful gift of being their caregivers at the end of their lives and OH what I would give to hold them today♥️
  • Jan. 26, 2018
  • 5:13 p.m.
  • Amanda Leake
Wow!! I am moved to releasing the tears that I have been holding back this week. Thank you for sharing this song, Joni. When our Elizabeth was born 42 years ago this Feb. 29, I worked as a nurse, my husband a professor of Psychology and also we became her devoted caregivers. We shared each surgery, doctors visits, routine at home, medication administration, as well as school meetings, school selections, challenger baseball games, skiing adventures, beach trips, Disney trips. Now, both my husband and I have chronic conditions which have made us caregivers to each other as well as sharing our daughters care with a very few choice people. We don’t know what the future will bring, we know that God has brought us this far and will take us home when He wants us there. Until then, we can only hold each other now!! Thank you again for sharing this beautiful song!!
  • Jan. 26, 2018
  • 10:18 a.m.
  • Geri Spencer
I love the song. My mom was my caregiver for over half of my life. She still comes over and does my hair, but now she needs help. My other caregivers are through a company. Some have been been really good..Again thanks for writing the song. God Bless, Sherri
  • Jan. 26, 2018
  • 9:51 a.m.
  • Sherri Till
i was blessed to have professional help in caring for my parents. But my Dad, even with dementia, cared for Mom until the last minute. Then I cared for him with God's grace. This song brought back memories and tears. I miss my Daddy!
  • Jan. 26, 2018
  • 8:57 a.m.
  • Laura bishop
Absolutely beautiful! This brought me to tears. Thank you so much!
  • Jan. 26, 2018
  • 8:38 a.m.
  • Suzanne Holland